The act of depression (A new script)

So for obvious reasons- this has to be updated but this is the first version of my new monologue.  I have to add how to move and act to it obviously but this is only the beginning part. 

Depression: Oh my...wakey wakey! Molly! I said wakey wakey! What is this? Oh I knooooooooooow. Shll we go over and over and over OVER and over And over that one event?! OH PLEASE! I really want you to remember HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW we must feel and how badly (slice finger across throat)  you just wanted to end it all. Oh sweetie......LETS GIVE IT A GO!

Molly: Oh my god! What the bloody hell? Molly who is that in my mind? Is someone else in my mind? Is speaking to me?! Why do I think I need to end it all? What if I do need too?

Depression: I mean look at you. What you have become is a disgusting lying idiot! I mean you cannot even go to sixth form without a panic attack. Really? How pathetic can you get? Why don't you just shoot yourself? I mean....it might even improve your look.

Molly:

I grew up memorizing all the cracks in the wall

Staring up at the ceiling watching particles fall

See I prayed every day for a change to be made

And I'd wait to be saved, oh no

Up at night, hiding under covers found my escape

Shut my eyes and let the bass buzz into my brain

See I knew I was destined for bigger

And better but never said a thing

Depression: A wildlife conservationist? And god all mighty! I cannot wait to see you run from your husband on your wedding day! How have you not kissed anyone at 17? What is wrong with you?! Are you mentally sick or you just....stuck behind a wall? Why don't you climb it you piece of shit! Oh thats right...you are pathetically weak and make everyone seem so much better around you. You low life!

Molly:

I assumed there was only room for

My dreams in my dreams so I'd sleep

And repeat 'til the moon went home

And I didn't know where it'd take me

But made me so crazy in love with it

Depression: What was that?! You dream of being a actress but who is going to accept someone who does not  even have a dam friend! You cannot step out of bloody house without feeling fear of someone watching you! You are ugly as bloody hell and deserve to die in hell! LISTEN TO ME!

Molly: 

Then the universe aligned

Oh, with what I had in mind

Who knew there was a life

Behind those four pink walls?

Oh, the universe aligned

With what I wanted all this time

I knew there was a life

Behind those four pink walls

Depression: What! Are! You doing! Stop it at once! You must listen to me you imbecilic idiot! STOP IT AT ONCE! YOU MUST NOT DO THAT! YOU WILL NOT WIN! YOU WILL NOT BE A GOD ACTRESS! YOU WILL MESS IT UP LIKE SHIT! LISTEN TO ME YOU ARE NOT GOOD! YOU ARE WORTHLESS AND YOU DESERVE TO DIE! LISTEN TO ME!

Molly:

Now I wake up to a different bedroom everyday

Living up in the clouds thinking of how it all changed

Used to sit and watch paint dry

Amazed by the limelight

I can't ever be afraid

Depression: NO! I SAID STOP! WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME!  LISTEN TO YOURSELF! CAN YOU NOT SEE YOU FAIL AS A BLOODY ACTRESS! STOP IT AT ONCE AND WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU ARE EVER GOING TO MEET HIM! STOP IT AT ONCE! GET RID OTHE DAM HOPE AND LISTEN TO ME LIKE YOU DID IN THE BEGINNING! MOLLY!

Molly:

I assumed there was only room for

My dreams in my dreams so I'd sleep

And repeat 'til the moon went home

And I didn't know where it'd take me

But made me so crazy in love with it

Then the universe aligned

Oh, with what I had in mind

Who knew there was a life

Behind those four pink walls?

Oh, the universe aligned

With what I wanted all this time

I knew there was a life

Behind those four pink walls

Depression: (getting desperate) What are you doing! Do not go to the doctors! I am not going to be quiet! Listen to me! The Doctors will refuse to help you! I- I please listen to me! I am not the enemy!  I am telling the truth! Please oh god! Please listen to me!

Molly:

All of the days that I wasted gazing outside the window

Impatient frustrations let out into my pillow

Lied awake at night while my head wandered

And I wondered why

Things weren't different

Everything shifted overnight

Went from when boredom strikes to Ms. Star on the Rise

It was all in an instant man

But those four pink walls, now I kinda miss them man

Depression: Why....what have you done to me! Dam you Williamson! Dam you! Go to hell and die and burn with the devil! He is your dam closest friend! Stop taking those! Stop......stop.....stop......it. I....

Molly:

Then the universe aligned

With what I wanted all this time

I knew there was a life

Behind those four pink walls

Depression, my name is not Molly Marie Williamson anymore. You killed that girls hopes. Me? I am Molly Marie or as I like to be known Jim. SO you know what depression? (Put middle up) You won't win and I will win. Cause does good not always win over  evil?

Also I have put two new videos up on my youtube channel- please check them out! 
The Name Written in Blood and Like Dreaming Backwards