Introduction
When we see something beautiful, we freeze the moment and try to commit that very moment to our brain. We want to remember how it felt to feel so light and carefree and happy. We want to remember that moment.
When we see something horrifying or experience something horrifying, we try our dam hardest to forget about it.
However, we cannot forget.
The more we try to remember the beautiful moments, the harder it becomes to remember those moments; till eventually we do not remember them at all.
The more we try to forget the horrible and horrifying experience, the more we remember and the more it hurts us.
Both contradict each other.
Our minds are strange but beautiful things. Words can barely described a mind and all the thoughts and emotions it feels. The things we see through our eyes or the things we experience and feel.
Our minds are our most precious gift.
The mind to me, is my soul.
The point of this is, the mind focuses more on pain and suffering than on the beautiful and honest moments.
Why, you ask? I don’t know the psychological answer to this question but from personal experience, it is easier to remember the pain and suffering because we let it traumatize us and act like it happened to another person. We try to block it, making that moment(s) so much stronger and worse. Thus, creating a spiral of horror and trying to stop the memories every waking moment.
I know this because...well...You will see why.
You are not about to read a story that is full of happiness or going to have a happy ending. Well...the end of my story might have a happy ending. I don’t know.
This story...it isn’t amazing.
This story is not spectacular, where you want to be me.
This story is horrible and full of thoughts of someone who doesn’t know what to do with their life and has to try and save them self- while others tell them to stop.
This story is horrible.
So don’t read this story expecting their to be a prince in shining armour or some other goddam fairy tale!
This is story is about me and the ruins I was left in!
Can you read that?
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